赛琳娜·戈麦斯：我的思想和我

"even in a crowd you can feel profoudly lonely. And this is why the world is filled with so many people who seemingly have it all. they are famous or wealthy or they are powerful. but what really matters is gge quality of the connections that we have. that whenever we have connections with people where we feel like we can not be ourselves,that actually separates us further and further from other people. And service,it turns out is one of the greatest antidotes to loneliness that we have,we reaffirm to ourselves that we have value to bring to the world. and it doesn't have to be going to a soup kitchen. simply by being fully present and listening to someone. we can give them something extraordinarily powerful. And so the journey to become more connected tp ourselves to connect more deeply with other people is not a journey to somehow transform ourselves into something we are not. It's really a journey to return to who we intrinsically are, being centered at our best,and experiencing our greatest meaning and fulfillment when we're giving and receiving that love " —— Dr.Murthy the surgeon general

Selena很勇敢的分享了自己很多很私人的很痛苦的片段。她曾经想要把这些都埋藏起来，但是基于她的职业，说出来确实会帮助到很多深陷于痛苦之中的人们。

有很多人其实不了解精神病，很多精神病都是没有办法控制住自己的，特别是自己的想法。是大脑或身体的某部分出现了故障，某些化学成分异于常人。无论自己身处何种环境，做任何事情，都会引发这样那样的情绪或行为。特别是selena还有lupus，会加重她糟糕的精神状况。但是她挺过来了。

看到selena妈妈说话那里真的哭的不能自已。我以一个妈妈的身份太能体会她的心情了。非常想帮助她，但那种无能为力和心底里的害怕......

很多时候就是那么一瞬间，一个念头，有些人就不在了。但是哪怕有那么一点点一滴滴，希望痛苦的人们也要坚持下去，千万不要放弃生的希望。必要的时候还是要寻求专业的帮助。

你看selena走出来后，她现在和以前多么不同。她想法都变了。更加坚定自己的目标。利用自己的职业给他人带去希望。

爱你的人总是会留在你身边。无论你用什么办法推开他们。无论你觉得自己有多糟糕，她们总能看到你身上的散光点，陪着你，一点一点慢慢走出来。

非常庆幸selena身边有那么多爱她的人。

最后，祝愿看到这篇影评的人，都像selena一样拥很多爱你的人。

Thoughts:

1. what a delicate strong woman.

2. the more I know her, the more I love her.

3. we have to build the foundation first which is to love ourselves.

4. I can relate to the mental struggles so hard.

5. no matter how complex and messy inside, you are still enough anyway.

6. I cry, I feel, and look back to myself, one broken inside also, feel powerful.

......

last but not least,

she's so freaking beautiful.

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Even in a crowd, you can feel profoundly lonely. And this is why the world is filled with so many people who seemingly have it all, right? They, you know, are famous, or they're wealthy, or they're powerful. But what really matters is the quality of connections that we have. That whenever we have interactions with people where we feel like we can't be ourselves, that actually separates us further and further from other people.

And service, it turns out, is one of the greatest antidotes to the loneliness that we have. We reaffirm to ourselves that we have value to bring to the world, and it doesn't have to be going to a soup kitchen. Simply by being fully present and listening to someone, we can give them something extraordinarily powerful.

So the journey, Selena, to become more connected to ourselves, to connect more deeply with other people, is not a journey to somehow transform ourselves into something we're not. It's really a journey to return to who we intrinsically are, being centered at our best and experiencing our greatest meaning and fulfillment when we're giving and receiving that love.

"Do you believe everyone has a calling? If so, do you think I've found mine?"

"Yes, I believe everybody has a calling. I think that you know what yours is, but you don't always choose to walk in it."

"What do you mean?"

"I think that you know the things that fuel you and give you purpose in life. And the things that make you happy. But I don't think you always choose that."

"Yeah, that's probably self-sabotage."

"Yeah, that's exactly what it is. I think stuff being normal or not having chaos is actually uncomfortable ... 'cuz if you think about it, your life for so long, from such a young age, has always been chaos. So it makes sense. It's, like, more comfortable."

"Yeah, no that's nuts. Oh, it sucks."

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这个纪录片是关注于心理问题的，但对于selena遭受的心理折磨并没有记录地特别写实，更多是从别人的嘴里讲出来或者是Selena坐在大床上难受之类的画面。治愈的过程也没有心理医生诊疗，而是selena去肯尼亚接触更多贫苦人民好像就治愈了大半似的。影片中有说过心理治疗，但感觉轻描淡写的就讲完了。

我并不是想窥探一个女明星发病或者接受治疗心理疾病过程中的隐私，而是感觉心理问题最折磨并且需要重视的部分没有在这部纪录片中强调出来。

selena很不容易还能坚持公益事业是让人尊敬的，但这部影片更像是宣传她个人。可能因为是名人纪录片的原因，侧重不同吧。有些俗套，想表达的东西还算真诚，但立意不高。

#赛琳娜·戈麦斯：我的思想和我-# (《Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me 》)这部纪录片与其他音乐人的纪录片大不同，并没有太多音乐和表演，反而更多滴展示了一个患有疾病的女孩这几年的挣扎。怪不得这部目前要进入颁奖季，Depression, Anxiety, bipolar, Lupus。。。其他歌手的纪录片并没有这些，即便是打击最多也就是事业上的起落，而年轻的Selena 同时经历了这么多身体和精神上的折磨，确实是很多外界可能并不了解的。看得很痛苦。

观看此片时最难过的是，可以明显看出她并不健康，也不快乐，甚至不喜欢她的工作，不断怀疑自己。而且病得不轻，有明显的抑郁症特征。好在她周围有很多人在帮她，照顾她，还有粉丝们爱她。也好在她一直很清醒滴认识到，及时自己的工作带来很多负面情绪，但她的影响力是重要的，并希望可以通过这种影响力帮助别人。

可以看到媒体不断追问Justin 的事，让她似乎永远摆脱不掉这个人，这也是很悲哀的一件事。我们普通人结束一段恋情，基本就不会有人提起，慢慢就忘记了，外人可能都不知道这段感情存在过。但Selena则永远都要被与Justin 牵扯在一起，即使后者都结婚五年了。

此外，以前总看到人们比较Selena和Hailey的方方面面，认为Hailey不如Selena有名气、有才华等。但是如果你看完本片也许会清楚滴看到，至少Hailey要比Selena健康、快乐很多。而这对女人很重要。一个不健康的人，会把负能量带给周围的人，可以看到Selena周围的朋友、工作人员常常不知道拿她怎么办，常常情绪上被影响到。试想，与这样的人在一起是无法快乐的。也许这也是Justin 离开的原因。当然，很多粉丝都说是反过来，因为Justin 的种种导致了Selena的问题。但这真的很难讲，哪个是蛋哪个是鸡。因为Selena的疾病和问题很多，并不是单纯的失恋这么简单。而Hailey，我平时也有常看她的视频，真的是一个很快乐、积极的人，即使她也经历过一些挫折，比如前阵子血栓。但整体的精神状态真的大不同，整个人都发光。

总之，这部纪录片让我们看到了Selena的状态远远比我们想象的要差，往往是镜头前还可以，一离开镜头就马上拉下脸，很多负面情绪。这些让人心疼，也让人替她感到悲伤。只有与粉丝、孩子接触的时候，她才是快乐的。

她也目前正在用自己的努力不断恢复、并继续帮助其他有精神疾病的人。也希望别人可以通过她的经历了解更多关于这些精神疾病的信息，不要再给予忽视。希望她可以尽快好起来。

看完的整个感受就是，也许这个职业，真的不适合她，也许，她真的需要休息。